I just read Stacy's recent entry... don't be sad.. I feel the same way...
yes.. I'm always jealous of cute couples :P
Before semi, I imagined how nice it will be if I can dance with a guy in semi...
I know that it's not gonna happen..well.. I ended up getting a hug from a guy... lol that's something new :P
I've always wanted a boyfriend,, but I know right now is not the right time yet... so I've given up
now.. I'm just gonna focus in school...
Stacy, ur right... we probably all feel the same way.. just that we try to ignore it..
about the "her" that u are talking about... don't compare with her...
you are so much better than her. she flirts with guys, but guys don't even like her..
ok she got a hug from ur cousin.. so what.. he's just too scared to refuse her..
and yah.. you still have prom, don't be too upset :)
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now... I have to vent about my life..
ok.. last entry, I mentioned how I feel that my sister is so much better than me.
maybe I was being a little stupid but whatever...
so now. my sister cannot stay with her best friend.
so if she's going to Vancouver, that means she has to go to home stay.
I think home stay is not a really good idea, because you don't even know the people ur living with..
so my mom suggested.. if she is going to home stay how about just go home stay in toronto..
I agreed to that.. but not my aunts..
they feel that my family is bringing them so much trouble..
they were like why is she coming... she can just stay in hk and find a better school...
then I said.. of course she tried, but none of those schools want her.. and there's not much good IB school in hk
they never understand .. all they say is no! we won't accept that!
have they ever consider our situation.. we don't want our family to be all separated... of course we want to stay together, but there's no choice...
if they are the one in hk and their kids have the same problem.. I bet they will ask for help too..
question:
why is my family in hk and their families are in canada?
because they all left for their own benefit and we went back to hk because we need to take care of my grandma... I'm not saying that my grandparents are burdens, just that my grand parents are also their parents, don't they have the responsibility to take care of them.. pluse my mom is the youngest of them all.. should the oldest sibling be the one who have more responsibility? my aunt said that if my sister leave, then all the grandkids will be away from my grandparents.. yah.. me and my sister had that role for years and years.. why can't my aunt's kids go back and take over that role.. we can't just sacrifice everything because they don't care.. we have our own lives too
yah.. they feel like they sacrificed a lot and my mom owns them alot just cuz they are taking care of me..
honestly, I dont' even feel like I'm part of their family.. they talk behind my back and say all these shit loads of things.. it's more like I'm in home stay than in a family...
before when they wanted to buy a better house for my grand parents, they even want to use me and my sister's university tuition money to buy that freakin house!
ok.. their kids all went to university and they are all settled down.. but we are not... me and my sister need that money for our future, just like how their kids need their money for their university tuition..
they can't just take that away from us..
they say it's for my grandparents,, so that means I have no choice but just let them use that money...
lucky.. they can't finds a house YET!
they care for my grandparents,, just by giving them money .. then it's nothing..
they rarely talk to them and even visit them.. when ever they visit , they only stay for a few weeks..
I feel that it's so unfair..
we have to give up so much, but we didn't even ask for anything in return..
now we're just asking for a favor..
my sister is not even living in their house.. we just want them to include my sister during holidays and just help her and care for her when needed..
that's it...
sometimes i think... if they are the one in hk, they might have the same problem and they will ask us for help.. and I know we will say yes...
however... my aunts never think that way.. they only think of their own benifits... they are like .. ok.. there's only one more year of jaime and then I'm FREE!
then if my sister comes along.. they'll be like EWWW... ONE MORE!?
I know they dont' like us.
they are not considerate at all... (esp the one that I thought was nicer, the one that doesn't live with me)
ok.. that's it.. this entry is too long...
my aunt is asking me to take a shower now...
later :/


ps. ignore the bad grammar. I was mad, so I didn't bother with correct grammar.

I just read Stacy's recent entry... don't be sad.. I feel the same way...
yes.. I'm always jealous of cute couples :P
Before semi, I imagined how nice it will be if I can dance with a guy in semi...
I know that it's not gonna happen..well.. I ended up getting a hug from a guy... lol that's something new :P
I've always wanted a boyfriend,, but I know right now is not the right time yet... so I've given up
now.. I'm just gonna focus in school...
Stacy, ur right... we probably all feel the same way.. just that we try to ignore it..
about the "her" that u are talking about... don't compare with her...
you are so much better than her. she flirts with guys, but guys don't even like her..
ok she got a hug from ur cousin.. so what.. he's just too scared to refuse her..
and yah.. you still have prom, don't be too upset :)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
now... I have to vent about my life..
ok.. last entry, I mentioned how I feel that my sister is so much better than me.
maybe I was being a little stupid but whatever...
so now. my sister cannot stay with her best friend.
so if she's going to Vancouver, that means she has to go to home stay.
I think home stay is not a really good idea, because you don't even know the people ur living with..
so my mom suggested.. if she is going to home stay how about just go home stay in toronto..
I agreed to that.. but not my aunts..
they feel that my family is bringing them so much trouble..
they were like why is she coming... she can just stay in hk and find a better school...
then I said.. of course she tried, but none of those schools want her.. and there's not much good IB school in hk
they never understand .. all they say is no! we won't accept that!
have they ever consider our situation.. we don't want our family to be all separated... of course we want to stay together, but there's no choice...
if they are the one in hk and their kids have the same problem.. I bet they will ask for help too..
question:
why is my family in hk and their families are in canada?
because they all left for their own benefit and we went back to hk because we need to take care of my grandma... I'm not saying that my grandparents are burdens, just that my grand parents are also their parents, don't they have the responsibility to take care of them.. pluse my mom is the youngest of them all.. should the oldest sibling be the one who have more responsibility? my aunt said that if my sister leave, then all the grandkids will be away from my grandparents.. yah.. me and my sister had that role for years and years.. why can't my aunt's kids go back and take over that role.. we can't just sacrifice everything because they don't care.. we have our own lives too
yah.. they feel like they sacrificed a lot and my mom owns them alot just cuz they are taking care of me..
honestly, I dont' even feel like I'm part of their family.. they talk behind my back and say all these shit loads of things.. it's more like I'm in home stay than in a family...
before when they wanted to buy a better house for my grand parents, they even want to use me and my sister's university tuition money to buy that freakin house!
ok.. their kids all went to university and they are all settled down.. but we are not... me and my sister need that money for our future, just like how their kids need their money for their university tuition..
they can't just take that away from us..
they say it's for my grandparents,, so that means I have no choice but just let them use that money...
lucky.. they can't finds a house YET!
they care for my grandparents,, just by giving them money .. then it's nothing..
they rarely talk to them and even visit them.. when ever they visit , they only stay for a few weeks..
I feel that it's so unfair..
we have to give up so much, but we didn't even ask for anything in return..
now we're just asking for a favor..
my sister is not even living in their house.. we just want them to include my sister during holidays and just help her and care for her when needed..
that's it...
sometimes i think... if they are the one in hk, they might have the same problem and they will ask us for help.. and I know we will say yes...
however... my aunts never think that way.. they only think of their own benifits... they are like .. ok.. there's only one more year of jaime and then I'm FREE!
then if my sister comes along.. they'll be like EWWW... ONE MORE!?
I know they dont' like us.
they are not considerate at all... (esp the one that I thought was nicer, the one that doesn't live with me)
ok.. that's it.. this entry is too long...
my aunt is asking me to take a shower now...
later :/


ps. ignore the bad grammar. I was mad, so I didn't bother with correct grammar.